Where to

And I wonder and wonder,

what to do with my future

as time pass by,

i am afraid

that it will be just a little too late,

I am so young and greedy

I can't decide which place to be,

where my future awaits me.

                                      - Hanii 

The 6 series - 68 days down the road

"marriage is not a noun; it's a verb it's not something you get. it's something you do. it's the way you love your partner every day.."

And she says,

there goes your life.

Girls get teary for no reason.

I am a mess these few weeks.

I messed up so bad that I only look for things that can distract me from this mess I'm already in.

I sleep. I watch movies (basically I stared at the tv). While my mind process nothing. It keeps sending signals to my eyes to produce tears.

I managed to keep it all hidden till my mom starts talking. The kinda talk that breaks the wall I build.

My brain can't process everything she said except for,

"Whatever happens, I will always love you. Whatever happens, I will always be your mom."

She's my live. My heart. My e.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g. My MOM.

She takes me as I am even I am at my worst. Thank you Ma.

And Thank you Allah, for such gift. She's definitely irreplaceable.