It's okay to reminisce, they are memories.

Wherever You Will Go - The Calling

"Run away with my heart

Run away with my hope

Run away with my love

I know now, just quite how

My life and love might still go on

In your heart, in your mind

I'll stay with you for all of time"

Tune is back

Been quite sometimes since I wrote my last poem. I really don't know whether I lost inspiration or just not having it cuz I spend less time focusing on myself, to my inner voice... or simply cuz I hardly wake up early anymore.

So, last few weeks I went to a training program for Change Management subject, and we were required to wake up early, so I had sometimes for myself and these words just flew through me. Note them in my memo, and thought to myself I could use them as a material for our cultural show. but we did not, we made theatre instead.

you know what... am not gonna explain further, it's not even important. but hey, I still get to read this in front of my classmates during our final presentation for the training. and I hope each one of them knows that this comes from heart. :)

I hope I still have my tune for self expression. Here you go :)

In life, you will trip...

in whatever you do,

You gonna have a falldown.

But that's what teaches life...

It teaches you the process,

make you understand all over.

And whenever you tripped,

always remember to get up.

Cuz each time you stand up and

take another step,

You're almost there,

Closer to victory,

closer to whatever you're meant to be...

Don't worry,

don't be afraid,

we are here to look after one another,

to help you get up,

to help you wake up...

Cuz I believe,

that's what friends are for.

by haniishadows.

Inexplicable by Farha Kiddo

" "I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did

And you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did,"

Plain White T's - A Lonely September

Writing this while listening to A Lonely September inspired me. How an unexpected meeting turned to be something so special; how a simple "Hi" could be the most important event in one's life. No one can ever predict how an everyday life occurrence could turn one's life upside down.

You don't need a beautiful fairy tale as an inspiration to write your own fiction. 

You don't need  someone like a prince charming or your favourite Hollywood star to make you fall in love.

You don't need a logical explanation to justify your emotion. 

"Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did,"

Plain White T's - A Lonely September

All you need is someone you catch you when you fall.

All you need is an ordinary person to make you feel extraordinary. "

So true. So true. How someone can change you so much... The world makes sense with their presence.

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Al-Fatihah to Muhammad Noor Zarian bin Abd Rahman

It had been a year since my last post. One freaking year can change so much... One freaking year, and so many things happened. Life happened.

I had been through the worst breakups in my life. Learned to move on. Hurt again, I'm okay. Still on the move. till we decided to go with the flow, no matter how deep the pain was, I can deal with it cuz I know, someday I will marry this guy. Things will work out again. Life would be perfect by then.

hey, I just knew cuz I love him so much. and I know he loves me too.

Then,

He's gone. forever.

Not only he left me, he left everyone. to meet his only Creator.

he's dead.

that was in March 2013.

So, how does it feel losing the love of your life? the heart that keeps you beating?  the guy whom I'm supposed to marry... Losing him means no more fights, no more making up toward each other, no more laughs, no more "I'll see you after work.", no more midnight calls, no more I surprise him infront of his door cuz I've been missing him so much, no more sweet text messages, no more him.

I'd replace him for I love him with all my heart. but... nope, that's not gonna happen. he's gone and that's for real.

It's been months, I make people believe I've moved on. I make myself believe that. I am so tired of crying, dealing with the pain, it's not going anywhere. If I were to stick to reality, there's only one thing I'll have to do, I need to love again. What's with the rush? No, I just need to let go.

And time is such a big deal. People talk so much, I just don't know when will be the right time to love again.

To let go myself, would take so long i believe. To be truly moved on. To be over the grieving.

I miss him a lot. Every situation that are taking place in my life I can relate to him, I just wish he doesn't have to go.

I hope he can rest in peace. be happier up there, in a world we would all meet again.

Yayan, should you know, you taught me a lot while you're still living, and your death had taken me aback and taught me something more. Something that no one else can teach. Only people who experienced beloved's death will understand. I love you.