Short-term LEASE

duhh, I just wanna move on. 

Last Day of 2011

Adik kata, "Kan best if everytime muntah keluar gold..."

Mom: "Lagi best if every tears dropped turn into gold..."

Adik: "A'ah, Hani kan suka nangis, nanti saya kutip semua air mata dia..."

-Gosh adik, kau cop aku suka nangis? -___-" Dah lah tak habis2 usik aku dah tua.-

"Shitty adik said, "Ma, hani dah takde 'teen-teen' kan tomorrow? Dia dah 'luh-luh' (puluh-puluh) kan?" #LastDayOf2011

He makes me laugh though he is very annoying. Thanks adik (: 

Miserable phase hasn't shift, the circle is stuck I guess?

Pretending to be strong. Pushing yourself in putting off the tears. Pretending you don't care. Pretending you are not missing him. Pretending you've moved on. And pretending to be fine... At the end of the day, I can feel myself beaten hard and I'll weep. So much for pretending, I find myself being silly.

I wanted to show people around me that I'm okay. I'm strong. I'm tough.

But realizing I'm all the opposite, hmm.... honestly I don't know what to say.

Why am i even blogging this? Putting every other reader into unnecessary misery of mine. Ahhh, I just need to know someone will read and someone cares. That's all... And that someone to be him. I'll just pretend he reads that's all okay. I'll shut up now.

Title-less

You don't know what you really want until you lose it. You don't know how much you really love someone until he/she is gone. Bila dah hilang, meratap air mata darah sekalipun, mungkin tak kembali. MUNGKIN.

I haven't been eating for this week, when I force myself to eat to show people around me that I'm okay, my chest pushed it away, the taste full of betrayal runs through my trachea into my stomach. Someone help me eat, aku sangat lapar but I just couldn't take in anything :(

I breathe, but I don't feel like breathing. I just can't get enough of oxygen... Shisha pun sia-sia sebab tak dapat nak tarik. k, it's not funny -.-"

Mandi masih basah, mungkin aku masih siuman, Alhamdullilah...

When I'm exhausted at night, I fell asleep... But I'm always awake in a sudden way, awake because I missed him, awake because I thought he was there, awake because I wanted to hear his voice... Sakit bila tiba-tiba terjaga and you know you can't change anything. And then I can't sleep anymore. Part duduk sorang-sorang paling tak best, you tend to wander and wander and think and think and cry and cry. But what can you do, crying is part of healing mom said, but I can't stand it because it feels like being stabbed many times yet I'm alive.

Falling out of love is no joke, but I'm not falling out neither I'm falling in... We're in between. 

Sedih, of course sedih. But I feel so much better after I met him today. Macam mana aku tahan jumpa ex? No, I feel worse if I don't see him. I seek strength in him, seeing him happy, seeing him looking great, seeing him smile, make me stronger. After I see him, I am quite sure I'll be okay, we'll be okay, InsyaAllah.

Sumpah aku rasa kosong... dikelilingi ramai orang pun, aku masih rasa kosong. His presence filled the emptiness. Berjumpa sekali pun cukup bagi aku. Now only I learn to be grateful for what we have kannn... shame on me. bahahaha. For time being mungkin aku akan diamkan diri, searching for what I've lost, the value in me. Muhasabah diri mungkin. I can't make people happy if I'm not happy. I can't fall in love if I don't love myself... So, I will love myself to love him even deeper. 

I hope he wouldn't think that I don't care when I stopped looking for him for a while. I hope he wouldn't stop hoping. I hope he wouldn't give up everything. I hope he would wait. I hope he would still love me when I'm back. Hope goes with prayers, Ya Allah I know you heard me... my hope is nothing without your wills. Please keep it, i know it's somewhere inside there...

Smiles and laughs hid everything even a single wound. but I hope he wouldn't forget my eyes. He used to know everything from it... and from there he knows I love him.

I'll be okay. InsyaAllah. 

Not to forget, Mom, who always prays for me, support me, and understand. She doesn't judge and blame and that's the best thing about her. I love you, Mom. 

Currently listening to: Ombak Rindu rotation by perpisahan ini dan Demi Cinta.

(ilysm)

Someone will be smiling when your relationship ends, don't be surprise it might be a friend.

Semak. Itu perasaan yang aku bawak ke sini-sana lately. 

Bila bukak Facebook, lagi semak. So, i decided to deactivate my account. Bila-bila aku rasa it's time for me make a come back, it's either aku akan activate balik atau this time I'm creating a new account. 

People judge. People talk. Doesn't really matter to me. Only family and him who matters. And friends, whichever true friends left... maybe one. maybe two. maybe none. 

I'm just so hurt, I don't know who to look for. I just wanna go somewhere, I don't know where. 

Yang ditunggu tak kunjung tiba. not a call nor a text. 

Ego aku terlalu tinggi, kalah KLCC. doesn't suit to be in a relationship. Aku salahkan diri aku, I just need to be away, find myself again. I feel so lost. Acting to be happy doesn't make me any happier. Laugh and laugh and laugh and in the end of the there I am waiting for a text or call, and cried myself to sleep.

That. Is. How. Pathetic. I. Am. 

I can't make myself find friend who would listen to my heartbroken story, I was busy all this while, I can barely make time for them, so I won't make them have time for me when I'm sad. I don't want them to feel burden, or to even have the thought of "oh she only look for me when she's heartbroken." Nope, I'll be back when I'm okay. I can do this. On my own. Hurt no hurt, everyone eventually get hurt in life. 

Since when ego aku tinggi? Since I got hurt. 

Insecure. Paranoid. Obsessed. Skeptical. Dubious. 

I guess that's me. Is it so? I don't know. 

Confused. Complicated. Muddled up. Obscure.

But I'll be okay, at least no one is lying. 

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Heard a rumour lately?

She surely will go around looking for every person that would listen to her sympathetic story because she desperately wants people to trust her before us. Of course, she already knew that if people know the truth then she would be hated. The least, not trusted? Hmm. Go around girl, waste your time. Too bad we don't really give a fuck anymore :) We really don't have time for this. Cukup kot satu sem kitaorg korbankan untuk kau? Well, to those yang listened to her story and decided to judge us, go ahead... It doesn't cost us a fortune, Allah Maha Adil, he'll be the one to judge you in return. Salam.

Relationship on a brink of disaster?

WHEN YOU FEEL LIKE HE DOESN'T CARE, DOESN'T HAVE TIME FOR YOU ANYMORE...

http://www.everydaypeoplecartoons.com/cartoon/331

"if we are important to them, why cudnt they spend just a few mins texting us or call us right? we want to be appreciated, we want to know that we r needed. that we are the first n last thing on their mind. but to them, as long as we know they love us, thats enough. we r used of them calling us all the time that when this happen, we feel as if that things change.. 

well, all i can say is, DON'T MAKE SOMEONE YOUR FIRST CHOICE WHEN THEY ONLY MAKE YOU AN OPTION. 

i know its hard, but thats what u had to do. the more you make space in your schdedule for him, the more u make urself available for him, the more the same thing is going to happen. busied urself doing something else. go out, have a new hobby,read books, work, just do something. indulge urself in sumthing new. put ur phone as far as possible from u. dont spend ur day waiting for him to call. once u start doing this, u'll find urself doing better without him. u spend less time thinking about him. n ull be more independent. n the hurts weaned down a bit. n the expectation wears off bit by bit. it still hurts of course, but u r less affected by it. 

... 

but don't let him get away with it either.u have to tell him how u feel, n he has to know what u feel. however, if u guys talked bout this hes going to feel that u keep attacking him n blaming him, he'll be more stressed out, n he knows the only thing that cud stop the argument is to say sorry. so he did, without meaning it. talking only makes things worse as he feels attacked, while u jd lagi marah n marah coz he doesnt acknowledge ur feelings. lag2 2 tgh marah kan." - AZ 

Its an advice given by someone I trusted. Its good to know someone actually understands how we feel right? That's what happen I guess when a relationship starts going downhill when one of them just forgets the commitment they used to give. 

It was exactly what I did anyway, I put my phone as far as possible from me, even when it's with me, I put them on silent so that I'll forget that I actually have a phone which isn't ringing. Well, things get better when less expectations are being put on, for you maybe it is a necessary but for him it's a hell of pressure. Duh, I don't get this sometimes. But told myself, I am still young, should go enjoy my life rather than waiting for a call that's never coming... If he calls, then he calls. If he doesn't, it's okay, later on I will call. But there's a saying for this type of people, "Appreciate what you have before it is gone."

http://www.cartoonstock.com/directory/m/mature_adults.asp

Dear SS

Haih, so much of an ATTENTION SEEKER -__-"

Malaysia vs. Indonesia Sukan SEA ke-26, 2011. Sengit!

Half naked on the bed with coffee and laptop as my only accompany wasn't how I planned the holiday... Was drowned in own misery until I decided to get myself up and watch the game of Malaysia vs Indonesia, Sukan SEA ke-26, 2011. Too much of spirit? I don't care as long as I give my all for #HARIMAUMUDA.

And for I force myself to get up and watch this game (I hardly watch any games), so Tigers do bring back Gold for us Malaysians! 

A friend of mine yang memang semangat siap buat pantun;

"Pukul berapa boleh dinner ni pak harimau?
Pukul 8.30 japgi kita makan rendang garuda!
Harimau bukan sebarang harimau!
Bahamlah garuda wahai harimau muda!"

Haha, that's her spirit. :P And not to mention, almost everyone change their dp to one's that wearing Harimau Malaya's shirt. See these spirits Malaysia players? You have to win this for us!

And semua orang punya status pun is supporting you guys :) 

Do you know how fast the twitter was updated bila Malaysia scored the first goal? Everyone was like, "GOAALLLLLLLLLLL!" (haha, k admitted me too) 

Gahhh, this game is getting me all tensed up... But Harimau Malaya, we Malaysians are praying for our victory! Get you head in the game! You can win this!!! 

Here's a motivation for the Indonesians too, you've got your supporters too;

@hyppoleticGOALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

@dinalds@hyppoletic haahahaha we support different team. Go indonesia! :P

@hyppoletic@dinalds no problem! Support own country, I see no harm :) well, #GoHarimauMalaya  =)

See, it's just football. I don't hate your country over football. But disrespect the issue, yes I'm quite offended too. I have Indonesians as my friends for God sake! Support own country, I see no harm in that? Right :) All the best to both. But , Harimau-harimau handsome, you got my support! AAAUUUMMMM! 

Do you know what tree this is?

Pokok rambutan dekat depan rumah all this while, and I've never even notice! Ada rambutan kat rumah so; I asked, "mane dapat?" 

adik jawab,"pokok depan rumah..." 

and i was like, "depan rumah ada pokok rambutan? since when?" 

There, it hit me on my face when my dad heard and was laughing at me... Duhh, I can't recognize a tree till I see it's fruit (if i know what fruit it is!). Malunyaaa... -___-"

Maths and Science in English or BM?

I told my brother (taking SPM this year, 2011);

Me: Ok lah, lepas ni belajar kalau belajar account lagi guna Statement of Comprehensive Income and Statement of Financial Position lah pulak...
Him: Ape tu?
Me: err, Income statement dgn Balance sheet lah...
Him: Hah? Ape awk ckp ni.... Ape tu?
Me: ??? crap...

We, struggled learning account in English as soon as we enrolled ourselves into colleges and now they are switching even Maths & Science subjects into Malay again? I mean BM meant no harm, but it may harm these kids, us kids to learn everything all over again. It's gonna be tough. Maths and Science even has loads of it's own terms as well, gosh, have mercy people. At least, the very least of Maths and Science, please leave them be in English... It's quite hard for my brother and sister to be switching from English to malay then later to English again... Even if we learn in English, I don't think we're going to forget our mother tongue language anyway, it's in us, in our blood.. how could we forget? :(

Though this issue is pretty outdated, but still it's an issue since it came up today in my life :)

Consoling people ain't easy

‎"Know when to offer tea or sympathy OR a tool kit and a stout rope. "

First half of pictures as promised.

SNOWALK i-CITY, SHAH ALAM, MALAYSIA

i-City Snow Walk, Shah Alam

JUST CAME BACK FROM i-CITY SNOW WALK WITH AMAZING GIRLS. WAIT FOR OUR PICTURESSSS! *tak sabarnya nak upload =D

Seksualiti Merdeka? Crap.

"Slm. Pasti Cik cik GAYah n semua PONDAN akan jilat Ambiga n kuncu kuncunya Coz pertahankan Hak 'SEKS bebas' ! We wait n see!" - quoted from Twitter.

#WeAll KnowThat Seks Bebas, no any sex before marriage, adalah salah dan haram di sisi agama. Kalau korang-korang nak buat seks, lagi-lagi seks sonsang, nak tanggung dosa, tanggung masing-masing sudah. Kenapa nak tanggungkan dosa untuk satu negara? Tak nampak satu-satu bala dah kena kat negara lain, nak cepatkan lagi bala untuk Malaysia ke? I don't get these people. 

Big And Taste =)

FOOD!!! gahhh

Big & Taste at Section 7, Shah Alam :)

Salam AidilAdha bloggers

They're an inspiration, never had a celeb been my idol. They're the first :)

-Blair Waldorf/ Leighton Meester & Chuck Bass/ Ed Westwick-

I really adore these two people for their very own personality/image.

Gotta admit, as much as I love Blair Waldorf, I love Leighton Meester even more!

And chuck Bass is just the perfect match for her, xoxo.

p/s: this picture is taken from http://sunshinewishes.tumblr.com

Si comel Kembar Empat

Someone left these cuties infront of my lecturer's house. :)

Comel kan?

My little puss in boot xp

Yeap, my little puss but he's big trust me ;p

I miss how he'd crawl onto my bed every morning when everyone is trying to wake me up, he will continue sleeping with me... Cute ain't him? When you first look at him, he looks tough like a bodyguard, but he's very spoiled. He likes people to pamper him... He wants people to accompany him while he eats. Mengada! But it's fine, because when I'm sad, I don't need to call for Goldie, he'll come and sit next to me. He won't go anywhere till I move... He's a gentleman. He's loyal. He's sweet and loving. He's a friend. He could be my next boyfriend ;p

He wasn't expensive when we got him. He came from nowhere, and my mom fed him. In return, he acted very nice and polite, most importantly, he did not poop anywhere near the house or neighbours' houses. So, we kept him. When we go for holiday, we thought he would have run away but he stayed. Long enough till even my dad loves him, I know he does. Usually he won't allows any cats in the house, but this Goldie, is the only exception. LOL. He's my only exception.

MUET preparation

Haven't done your MUET? Despite your age ladies and gentleman, anyone can take MUET now. This is based on experience last week. I am a private candidate student. I chose a school near to my place. I had to survey the school first because I never knew where it was till I had to take my MUET examination there.

 When I get there, I was expecting students around my age only to be there. Other than that, I thought it was the teachers or the parents of the candidates. But, gosh they're all candidates too! There are a teacher, and engineer who's taking MUET because without it he can't graduates. Chinese, Malays and Indians all in one room. Which means, you just can't predict who will be in your group. And foremost, you cannot underestimate other people. In other word, you cannot judge especially by how they look. Old people taking MUET may look funny but you must remember they're much wiser in life. They know more on general issues and issues in life.

Well, enough of babbling. As a private candidate, I wasn't really aware of the dates of my examination. The last time I check the 'Mohe' website, it say that I'll be taking my Speaking examination in 2 weeks time! I was freaking out! Damn, I wasn't prepared at all... So what I did was, I went to bookstore and bought a book on MUET papers. However, my schedule was so tight on tests and presentations, I barely had time to open the book or even glance at it.

One day before exam, I finally took a look at the book. Only reading the past year questions on speaking test. Then I did some reading on examples of essays. I did not just read, I read them loudly. With intonations and fluently. Get it? I needed some proofs that I can speak well Insya Allah. That is all I did for a prep and tell ya it's kinda enough for a speaking test.

Other than that, most important is make sure you know the format!!! Urgh, some candidates just walk into the room without even knowing the format, trust me! this is for real! You have to know how long you're given to prepare, how long you have to speak... Then, how many section. Individual and group section... What is the format of the questions... Things like that. Basic ones.

If you want to have a further view on the MUET test, try to Uncle Google the example or watch them on YouTube :)

Most of MUET speaking test questions will only touch on the contemporary issues. The social problems or anything related mostly to youths.

Last but not least, be confident even if you know you're repeating your points. And dress smart to impress the judges.

 YOUTUBE will help! :)

In Twitter, I'd say RT this :P

They say, "Be a girl with a mind, a bitch with an attitude, & a lady with a class"

Tips for Presentation

Tips for Presentation? WEAR HIGH HEELS! The higher, the better ;p Wait, I am freaking serious. I do that all the time, I walk in with a flat shoe but when it's my turn to present, I'll change to my high heel. I will feel more confident of myself. Well, you can try.

Do look smart too, for girls, the least you can put on is baju kurung but make sure it's a presentable one. And one more thing, wear clothes that make you feel comfortable. For example, I have this one baju kurung that makes me feel like I look so sweet wearing it. For guys, as usual you guys don't have much choice but to wear slack and formal shirt and also black shoe of course, but you can vary by wearing different kind of colours rather than black and black and black.

Make sure you know what you are going to say on the presentation. When you know what you're doing exactly, then again your confident level will add up. Be sure you have a little notes with you in case you forget a little bit here and there during your speech. Even if you want to write an essay long of notes it's alright, but NEVER NEVER read the text! You can refer to it but don't read! It's kinda rude to the audience as well I guess. You don't wanna be rude don't you...?

If it's a group presentation it is best if you rehearsed the presentation first to get the idea of the presentation flow. But if you're running out of time, it's okay, just make sure your group members know which is their part, and ready for their part of presentation. Then only the flow will be great.

NEVER EVER chew a gum or anything during a presentation! It's just plain rude.

Ahhh, one more thing. I've seen too many of this during presentations. Mostly, students will write an essay on their slide. Do you want to present or you want us to read by ourselves? Put only points! For example, if you're presenting on 'consumer benefit', just put maybe first its cheap, second its high quality. The rest of the text, speak them out. Present the elaborations by yourself! When you write so much on your slides, tendency is you'll just be reading them out. This is another kind of rudeness that can occur during a presentation -.-

Another thing that I realized, when we are nervous, we'll be using so much of fillers like 'aaaa', 'umm', 'errr', 'aaaaaa'... Yg ni nak buat macam mana, you have to overcome the fear and this process will definitely take time. Fix it each time you present, remember you want people to see you, judge you as a smart, brave and confident person. But I can tell you, if you're well prepared for a presentation, the tendency of using fillers is less than when you're not ready or last minute prepared. So, remind yourself, when doing a presentation, make sure you're ready by a day before!

Last but not least, ask yourself, when you're presenting, you want people to pay attention and at leasttt act like they understand what you're saying right? The same goes to other presenters... Thus, when other people is presenting, be quiet even you've done yours. Your cooperation is much appreciated ;p

That's all for now, and for girls, don't forget to wear high heels!

Lembah Temir 3 / Temir Valley for the 3rd time

Assalamualaikum

I know, I know. I've been missing on blogspot since Raya. Not that I don't want to come back neither I don't have interesting stories and pictures to share but I'm just too packed with activities, assignments, and restriction of Internet connection when I'm somewhere else. But, I'll start again bit by bit updating and sharing you people with what I have...

Title: Lembah Temir 3, indicating my third post on Lembah Temir (Temir Valley). I went there on July 31, 2011 for a Pesta Makan Durian Sg Pertang. It was amazing. Wanna know how amazing it is especially for Durian lovers? Let's see these picture...

 Not only they provide Durian but also other fruits as well :)

JACKFRUIT

PINEAPPLE

BELIMBING (in malay) 

JAMBU AIR

COCONUT

BANANA

DRAGONFRUIT

Love fruits? Ow yeah, these fruits are yummy! Rich in taste and vitamins ;p I will continue in other post on other activities we did there and the crowd of the events. Again and again I'm saying, You have to experience Lembah Temir for yourself!

TILL MY NEXT ENTRY PEOPLE:)

why does the picture rotate itself? -.-"

Salam Aidilfitri ;)

"Taqabbalallahu minna wa minkum. Eidukum Mubarak :D "

Salam Aidilfitri to all, saya ingin mengambil kesempatan untuk meminta maaf andai kata ada tersalah kata, terkasar bahasa, teruguris perasaan secara tak sengaja ataupun sengaja selama anda membaca blog saya. I would also like to wish you all a very, happy, great and meaningful Eid to all Muslims :) Insya Allah moga kita semua tidak mengulangi kesilapan yang sama ya. And not to forget, to all non-muslim, thanks for wishing and feel welcome to come and visit. You will find a heaven of foods... ;p 

She is paranoid I guess

Kutuk orang memang senang... Especially when you don't know that someone. The same goes to me anyway, tapi kalau dah kenal and perangai memang cilaks, aku rasa lagi best nak carut because you totally deserve it. I'd like to ask, kalau aku gaduh dgn bf aku sebab aku rasa insecure, tu maksudnya I'm not in the right relationship? Insecurity is a women thing. I bet you felt the same way in your relationship kalau something is not right. If your boyfriend ramah sikit dengan perempuan lain, kau dah marah2 sampai buat status kat Facebook bagai... Kau takpe kalau rasa camtu? Aku tak boleh? I dont know what to call this disease you guys have... back up kawan lah kata, good luck lah okay? :)

With all the respect I have, I am asking you to move on too... I've let go and please do the same.

Allah Maha Adil. Kalau sekali kau khianat orang, mungkin sebagai balasan kau tak kena khianat, tapi perasaan dendam will stay with you forever, kau kau tak boleh nak let go of someone yang kau khianat. Kau tak boleh tengok dia bahagia... Siapa yang terasa, siapa suruh kau stalk aku punya blog? Dari dulu sampai sekarang, kau rasa aku suka nak tulis pasal kau... Aku cuma nak convey msg, aku boleh terima kalau kau tikam aku dari belakang, tapi sampaikan kawan baik kau pun kau tikam sebab nak lepas tangan, I think you need a wake up call.

Why can't you let go? bukan aku yang buat salah kat kau... If you're mad because I cursed you, fikir balik, don't you deserve that? Aku cakap dengan kau baik2, as matured as I could be and you stabbed my back without guilt. When I say, stabbed my back, aku rasa kau dan aku tahu what happened. Deny all you want, to save your ass, tapi akhirat nanti kau jawablah sendiri... Aku bukan nak judge of other bad things kau buat, but for the bad things you did to me... For the lies you've said. Kau boleh lari sekarang, but the truth will  always come out.

You've pushed me to my limit, and bare with it... Jangan berlagak baik, I know who you are. Kesian sangat dekat your bestfriend, because she has a friend like you, who's willing to use a bff as an excuse to save her own ass... And before you ask someone to open up their mind, buka minda kau dulu, dari dulu sampai sekarang hidup dalam penipuan and you keep running away... Denying all the truths, making up fake stories... Sangat kesian. Or maybe, the word gelabah, shud've been awarded to you... 

If you're reading, and you're mad, it's not my fault at all, its my blog and I write whatever I like, it is your choice to read and you're actually desperate to read what I've got to say... Now that you know, tolong jangan kacau hidup aku lagi, aku tak pernah sekali pun kacau hidup kau... Aku bahagia dengan Yan sekarang, and pls stop talking behind my back. Tak serik2... Kalau betul tak puas hati, cari aku face to face. Aku tak takut sebab aku tak pernah buat salah dgn kau. Get it? 

I've never oppressed you, there's no reason to do the same to me. 

Empathize beb, if you can't, if God's willing, Karma will teach you how... 

Apa2pun, I'm sorry for what I've said for the last 2 years, and just to let you know I've moved on, we've moved on, and I don't want anything to do with you anymore for the rest of my life. Cukuplah setakat sedara sesama Islam, pls move on too. 

Duriannnnnn Marathon!

Ramadhan's approaching very soon, and today my boyfriend's making a pot-luck before Ramadhan and the main course will be his yummeehh shepherd pie :) He invited his friends, old friends, new friends, classmates, and for whom I know, I can't wait to see you guys... Loveee gathering, it's kinda hard nowadays to gather your friends at one time in one place. So people, make yourself free okay?^^

this picture is googled, when I'm back, I'll upload Temir's Musang King alright? ;p

Not to mention, today I''m eating shepherd pie and on Sunday I'm definitely going for Durian Marathon :D Adrenaline rush bila sebut Durian Marathon... duhhh see, it's happening again ;p If you guys ever read my previous post on Lembah Temir or Temir Valley, mesti dah boleh agak where I'm going for this Durian Marathon. Due to the info, Musang King dah jatuh ke tanah, boleh tak nak excited? hahah. Imagining, after eating durian and delicious foods provided there, and jumping into the fresh cold waterfall... Stress-free day!!! :):):)


However, not to forget, selamat menyambut Ramadhan to all Muslims :) It's a great opportunity to improve ourselves, to avoid doing things that we should not be doing even in normal days... Solat terawih jgn lupa, tapi penting lagi solat 5 waktu :) I'm saying this as a reminder to myself and all my friends out there, let's hope we'll do better this time and pray we'll still be able to meet Ramadhan again Insya Allah. 

With lots of love, Hanii.

Harimau Malaya vs. Singaporean's Best Actors

Boleh tak panas hati baca tweet2 orang yang takde respect lansung towards other human being I'd say? Harimau Malaya vs. Singapore and we lose but it was a great game okay, our goalkeeper, Khairul Fahmi (trending in twitter ;p) had been a hero for tonight. So, we lost. It's okay, really, there's always NEXT TIME :) But the problem here is, if we don't congratulate Singapore, they'd say we are immature freaks who can't face reality but in reality, when we actually do congratulate them, they're telling us mad? Hello freaks, I don't want to blame a whole country for a few freaks like you guys but you should really learn manners! OMJ, we're being polite and professional mannn, we're telling you, you can win tonight, but that doesn't mean we'll let you win everytime! We'll prove it! Harimau Malaya will!

Not to mention, we are so proud of Harimau Malaya for NOT ACTING such a pussy on the field :) You guys should really actually win an oscar ;) Tak langgar, tersungkur sikit dah sakitnya macam kene belasah dgn 10 orang. Lembik sangat. Sikit-sikit nak kene angkut dengan stretcher, chettttttt betul ke sakit? LOL :D

Conclusion? Thanks to all immature freaks who are insulting Harimau Malaya fans for congratulating you Singapore, we'll definitely beat you next time. We will, kan Harimau Malaya? Aaauuuummmmm! Go Tigers!

p/s: RT @reenreeen: Congrats Singapore. Make sure you guys toughen up before 2014 because we don't want to see you rolling around on grass again.


RT @JengJie: Kay congrats Singapore, at least I'm proud to say Malaysia won like 4-1 fair and square without imports.


RT @Azwinaazmi: #HarimauMalaya i'm proud w/ u guys.u showed alot of improvement. btw congrats singapore b'cz u really crazy in love with our grass.jyeahh!:)


p/s: Tiada kene mengena dgn yang hidup atau yang mati, ini adalah bola semata-mata. No harm meant, no offense meant too :)

One call that matters.

I really need to chill out. Go somewhere, do something, just to kill the time. Do something that'll make me feel appreciated. Buy a gift for myself...
I know, in relationship there shouldn't be possession, I swear to God I am not trying to control him or something like that. All I ever waited for was for one call, one call after you finish work and before I go to bed, or before you go to bed... It doesn't matter if we barely even talk, but that one call mean so much to me. Even if I don't answer, when I wake up in the morning, to see there's a miscall from you, knowing that you actually called, will make my day. But, I waited and you never called... I called and you never answered. And, when I acted out weird, you asked me "what's wrong?" ??? For real? How am I supposed to explain to you? Tell me, if I explain to you just like how I wrote this post, will you understand? Will you? I think I have said about this before and yet it's happening again, and you expect me to understand this time... Maybe I don't. But I won't speak up... I'm done fighting. All I want is a call. I don't need you to come and see me and tell me you've sacrificed much for me. When I'm sad, I don't need you to be upset. So, now that I'm not telling, when I'm sad, I'll just stay alone. Keep it to myself, and hold onto it. So much for love, I can't even understand it for myself.. One call. That's all. 14.07.2011

ABC flavours, ABC sedap

Kalau tahu jalan ke Wangsa Maju, jalan straight lepas tol menuju ke Wangsa Walk, this is where the stall is located. It's not really a stall, more like on a lorry. But I can tell you, I am willing to go from Puchong to Wangsa Maju just for this ABC!!! :) It is so yummy, very tasty, pekat... And some more. they provide you with flavours if you want! Ada durian, mangga and more. I prefer ABC biasa. Memang terbaik ABC dia :) Kalau bosan tak tahu nak kemana, boleh la melepakkan diri makan ABC kat sini, ABC terbaik wok! ;p

Worth RM3 per cup. MUST TRY!

Have you tried to change once?

"Consider how hard it is to change yourself and you'll understand what little chance you have in trying to change others."

BERSIH? BERSIH KE? Atau HARUS BERSIH?

BERSIH OH BERSIH. I know many people think it's stupid, burdening and all, but come to think about again there's actually a good thing about bersih. Try to look at a bright side, at least there's somebody checking on what the government s doing, right or wrong. I have to admit, I am still very young(cewahh) and I really don't know much about politics and all but bila dengar cerita about sekolah adik2 yang tak dapat peruntukan dari kerajaan, it's quiet sad. Tandas rosak nak dekat setahun tak dapat repair. Kerusi patah tak dapat ganti. Sekolah ambil initiative kutip derma sampai parents dah bising saying asyik mintak derma je! But what to do, the money they're supposed to get tak sampai sampai. At least the by having the opposition, they can't do just whatever they want. Isn't that's the reason we're in the democratic parliament?
Okay fine, whatever, of course there're always pros &cons... The cons? ROADBLOCKS AND TRAFFIC JAM everywhere! My 20 mins journey became 2 and a half hours yesterday in Federal Highway -_-" The news has gotten to the international level, foreigners are advised not to fly to Malaysia, it's kinda a bad image towards Malaysia. Malaysia is known for  harmony country where everyone is friendly and nice but the image is being corrupted. So, basically tak tahu nak cakap Bersih is a good thing or a bad thing. It is so sad realizing that Malaysia politics are turning into some kind of Thailand's. It makes people afraid.

Okay, lastly I hope my post won't get me to jail ;p Tidak berniat untuk menghina :)
Let's hope for the best for MALAYSIA :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3BcVg3Sapjk&feature=youtu.be

And I present you a few voices I copied from a person's facebook,

"Maybe someday if your dad are convicted without any trial, or your mother cannot pay her surgery fees, or your brother are beaten to death in custody, or your sister are forced to change clothes in front of the police, maybe that day you learn why some people are joining the Bersih demo."

"Ambil satu kertas putih, conteng satu noktah hitam. Tanya orang apa yang kau nampak? Nampak noktah hitam kecik tu. Kertas putih besar gila tak nampak? Sekarang ni kau nampak orang nak buat demonstrasi 'nak kacau keamanan'. Government yang oppressive gila tamak kuasa sanggup buat apa-apa nak pertahan kuasa kau tak nampak?"

"Demo hari Sabtu tengah hari kau cakap ganggu rezeki orang. Tapi lebih dr 10 road block hari weekdays time orang nak pergi kerja tak ganggu pulak? Demo dekat KL sahaja kau cakap ganggu pergerakan orang. Tapi tutup semua perkhidmatan bas, komuter, and LRT 9hb ini tak ganggu pergerakan pulak? Semua rasa pendemonstrasi itu penjenayah tapi pagi tadi di Johor ada mamat culik semua budak tadika jadi hostage siapa nak kesah?"

On the other hand,

"Rasenye semuorg dapat ape die nak. Ape lagi yang tak cukupnye ni? Orang lain tu bole bagi ke ape korang nak?"

"Bersih bersih bersih. Bersih sangat orang yang nak membersihkan orang tuu? Ungrateful earthlings."

But for me;

"Menyokong bbrp idea pmbgkng bkn brerti mnentang kerajaan. Menyokong bbrp idea kerajaan bkn brerti mnentang pmbgkng. Otak kita msti lbh luas." 

How are you feeling?

"If you fight like you're married, talk like best friends, and flirt like first loves, you're meant to be."

Fight like we're married... Talk like best friends... and flirt like first loves... but things were never right... ;( 


Currently listening to: The Script - For the First Time

Surprise Birthday Party

I can't sleep, mungkin sebab dah tidur petang tadi. Itulah, mama dah kejutkan tapi gatal nak tidur, kononnya letih and here I am babbling alone.
Tawar hati. I need an exact definition for that. How about if you love a person much yet you feel that? Possible? Entah, yang pasti what I'm feeling isn't something I would classify as 'tawar hati'. Well, whatever (ayat cover!)

Last Thursday was my love's birthday. Well, didn't do much for this year as I have a very tight budget. I was quite in dilemma in deciding how to make his day... Last year, we celebrated with family. So, I thought I'd do something different. Thinking of taking him to the Garden restaurant in Sunway or Italiannies at the Curve but thinking of going out just together, the both of us, doesn't makes me feel excited. I mean, it could go awkward or he might be bored of going out just the two of us, yelah everytime pun boleh keluar berdua what... So, what came to my mind was he'd be so happy if his friends could gather in one place at one time. He can hardly gather his friends, they're often busy working and stuffs. Sometimes, dia pulak yang tak ada masa lagi2 since he starts working at Celebrity Fitness. So, I decided to gather his friends and make it a surprise for him and mission started by inviting each of his besties, people that I know. Everything was planned well, it should turn out fabulously but I spoiled it. Hanii pulakk... mampu planning, hancus. Last minute plan, tukar location, and I decided to bake the cake (it was my sis actually ;p). Rush balik from my work place, tukar baju and all tak sempat siap pun and nak confirm lagi dengan everyone else, I sucked in planning haha.

But Alhamdullilah, surprise tak surprise lah jugak dia. Maybe I dah kantoi sikit awal2 tu, but he never expected around 10 of them will turn up. I pun actually ;p Happy sangat, because of them lah my surprise menjadi, even lambat and all, tolak tepi lah, dah lepas pun. And special thanks to Naz, who I believed came all the way from Puncak Alam to make it happen. Not to forget Nick, Ateen, Anis, Jijie, Mimi, Apip, Dayah, Kak Ton, and Shah :) Thank you guys, and Happy Birthday <3 

Location: McD jalan Telawi, Bangsar.