Romantic proposal

Did I ever share how he (Zarian) tried to win my heart? He bought be this roll at Crepe Signature at (it's a food by the way, i knowww righttt!) at the packaging of the food, he wrote, "Would you be my girlfriend?" Dah lah depan public. I cried anyway. Lapar sangat gamaknya menangis... hahaha!

'CREPE SIGNATURE'
This is the shop, you guys should try the seaweed flavour, it's AWESOME ! Trust me :P
(well that's why people queue for it, isn't it?)
*this picture is taken somewhere from google. thanks Google.

And this... is how he did it <3
He is romantic sometimes, i have to admit that *blush*
I LOVE YOU YAYAN.

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Sekolah Menengah Swasta Saleha, Genting Highlands

I miss my high-school life. I miss my friends. I miss the schools' events. 

I miss SM(S) Saleha, Genting Highlands.

And this goes to Cha, Ja, Cindy, Fareha, Aqil, Reza, Chik Yin, Shi Wei, Hikmah, Wan, Helen, Nanda, Freddy, Cynthia, Taufik, Helbert, Nyiam, Phua Chu Kang, Betty, Eleena, Fara, Mieza, Sherra, Nad,Syasya, Jez, Nithiya, Adam, David, and all my juniors, and of course, teachers. There are too many to mention, but I miss you all dearly in my heart. <3

I once felt like being in a prison in KGH, but I did not realize I actually had the best moments when I was there. When we're all there. And now, I miss it badly. 

Walk Of Hope 2012 ; WalkOfHope2012

Boyfriends, Girlfriends, Couples, Families, Mommies, Daddies, Nannies, Sister, Brothers, Kids, Pretties & Handsomes ; Let's join this Walk Of Hope (charity event) to help the Somalia kids!

You'll feel good when you do something good.

Bring your families, walk together. On top of donating, you get to spend some sweet & healthy family time together :)
Plus you can also inspire your children towards doing good deeds for humanity!

credit to: @MrAdamDawn 

RT @pearkuku: "Untuk daftar, anda boleh klik http://www.walkofhope2012.blogspot.com untuk #WalkOfHope2012 dan terus follow @WalkOfHope2012 "

Spread the news people! Spread love!

more info on  http://www.walkofhope2012.blogspot.com/ or https://twitter.com/WalkOfHope2012

#WalkOfHope2012

Chocolate Chip simple dan sedap!

Assalamualaikum si cantik dan jejaka handsome :)

Ramadhan Qareemm :)

First of all, harap tak terlewat nak ucapkan selamat menyambut Ramadhan al-mubarak. Hopefully kita semua diberi kekuatan dan kesabaran menghadapi dugaan di bulan puasa ni.

In a blink of an eye, 2012 has sped up to August. Sekarang pun dah mid Ramadhan. Tak lama lagi syawal datang menjelma :) Thus, during my sem break ni, daripada tak buat apa-apa lansung, I've decided to bake cookies for Raya! Rasanya tak cepat sangat kot?? hehe. Anyway, tak lama lagi bila dah start class takut tak sempat nak buat.

Today, I tried Chocolate chip cookies. Below are the recipe:

Bahan-bahan:

125 gram butter

125 gram gula perang

150 gram tepung red rose (boleh dapat kat any bakery shops)

20 gram serbuk koko

1 tsp vanilla essence

1 biji kuning telur

50 gram choc chip (yang berkualiti i.e hershey's)

25 gram badam cincang

25 gram sunflower seeds

Cara-cara:

1. Pukul mentega & gula perang hingga kembang.

2. Masukkan kuning telur & esen vanilla, kacau rata.

3. Masukkan tepung & serbuk koko yang telah diayak bersama dan gaul sehingga adunan sebati.

4. Akhir sekali, campurkan badam, sunflower seed, & choc chips dan gaul rata.

5. Bentukkan adunan & susun atas dulang pembakar.

6. Bakar pada suhu 180'C sehingga masak (10-11 minit)

Recipe ni diambil dari http://resepimalaya.com/2011/12/26/hersheys-chocolate-chip-cookies/

Kalau nak tahu lebih banyak resipe, boleh lah melawat blog dia :)

saya buat 4 adunan sekali, adunan dia memang agak berderai sedikit, but don't worry, InsyaAllah menjadi.

4 adunan, jadi saya lebihkan choc chip sebanyak 50 gram. 

Saya bentukkan dia bulat-bulat and then saya penyekkan guna garpu kecil.

Jangan lupa letakkan baking paper atau sapukan mentega atas dulang ye sebelum susun untuk dibakar, nanti melekat.

Well, i think that's all you need to know pun. ahhhh, 4 adunan yang saya buat, dapatlah dalam 2 balang kuih yang sederhana besar tu.

Apa-apa pun, penghargaan diatas perkongsian resipe oleh kak jenap melalui blog dia :) you should really try them!

Inilah cookies saya yang tak berapa nak semenggah rupanya, tapi crunchy dan sedap!

I hope i'll be updating more recipes on cookies soon, InsyaAllah! :) 

There's always a better tomorrow

I knew I left this blog (again) for quite a log time, and my most of my post were only about heartbreaks and pain and tears and memories and stuffs... I'm sorry if that kinda irritates some of you. Well, it's my blog, obviously. But to like or not, that's up to you. It's your right really...

Things or shall I call it, life, has gotten better for me these few months. I know, I said so much on being brokenhearted and how much I wanted to move on and how hard it was to let go. But, yeah, it's the bitter truth, but I am now back with the same guy. Lame? Pathetic? Weak? I thought so.

I tried moving on, after one hectic month (hey it wasn't that bad, it helped me lost weight after all ;p) and I  thought there was nothing left, I tried to fix things but alas I realized the relationship were like broken glasses shattered into dust, you can't even glue it up. There was no shape anymore after all. 

I moved on. as the quote above says, they miss you when you move on, that is what I would want to believe, but I wouldn't know for real... 

We started to contact each other again, TRYING to be friends, there were no attachment, no commitments, so we both were free and happy. SPARKS were there once again... and then cupids came along convincing us to work this thing called relationship, all over again.

It was quite tough at the beginning, of course, me and my trust issue, me being paranoid, me being me...

but Alhamdullilah, it have worked out. 

I don't know how we worked it out, but I don't have to check his phone everyday anymore, I don't have to log into his Facebook account to check any inbox and stuffs. Even I feel annoyed doing those things, it's like I'm hurting myself more than he is (if there's any 'cheating' going on)... Because checking all that, proves that, "mannn, I don't trust this guy, there must be something he's hiding from me...At leastttttt something." LOL. Ask me pleaseeeee, why am i in a relationship with someone I do not trust at all? I was so silly I should die!

but we tried talking, confessing, tried this method called 'being honest'. At first, he cooperated by telling me where he is, who he's with, by re-assuring me how much he had learnt his lesson, and re-assuring me of how much he needs me now. I know it sounds pretty fucked up, but i just needed assurance at that time. I needed to know he's being serious. I needed him to prove he's ready to commit. So, he committed by helping me through...And now, I can go a day without being so clingy to him. 

but hey, someone said,"If he's being unfaithful, then it's his lost." 

Huh, I guess we never knew the future yeah. Whatever it is, never lose faith :)

And, - As a Muslim, even ditahap yang paling cikai, never ever lose faith in Allah. Suicide is never an option. Whatever it is, go back to Allah.

Define your term of 'friendship'.

"Kadang-kadang ada kawan tu, tiga bulan sekali je jumpa. Tapi dah 7 tahun tak lost contact. Ada pulak kawan yang setiap hari lepak, tapi bila haluan dah lain, tak contact dah. Sahabat tak bermakna perlu beriringan setiap masa, sahabat bermaksud betapa sibuk pun masing-masing, tidak pernah hilang di ingatan dan doa. Friendship is not about frequency, but friendship is about consistency." - Imran Sheik

I admire this guy whom I barely remember because I only met him when I was still a child, he was my neighbor. 

I admire him for how he can express almost everything in words. I can't, I failed at expressing my thoughts or feelings. And when expressed in actions, most of them were misinterpreted. So, people like him, help people like me a lot. 

and friendship, is about consistency. :) 

Fix me.

I don't know where to go, who to run too, and i end up driving to your house. Tak dapat jumpa awak, knowing you're around, you're very near to me, cukuplah. But I thought if you knew I'm around, you'd come out to see me, but you only came out upon my request. Sedihnya saya. Awak keluar pun semata-mata nak suruh saya balik. I don't know who to run too... Dulu saya sanggup tunggu awak kat luar rumah nak jumpa awak 2 jam, awak keluar 5 minit awak bising tentang nyamuk. 

God, I don't where to go, I don't know who to run too... 

Sekurang-kurangnya it made me realize, masa happy cakap apa pun sanggup, but when reality struck, poof, semuanya hilang. Yang sweet. yang dijanji. Bukan saya berkata tentang other half saya sahaja, saya pun lebih kurang sama. Bila marah, bila sedih, semuanya lupa. 

As much as I want to retain this relationship, I just don't know how to fix it anymore. Fix me. 

Fix me.

It messed his efforts

Feb 2, 

Single's Daily Horoscope for Cancer;

"Sometimes your inferiority complex is charming. Currently, however, i has ceased to be cute.
Nobody has the energy to reassure you -- that confidence must come up from within. If you haven't talked to a stranger in a while, today's the day to chat it up with a new hottie."

Thing is, there is no new hottie. I wouldn't say old, but he is sure not new to me. and that's the problem when you had a history, it tends to mess up with the presence. Reading this made me realize, he wouldn't have all the time in the world to keep on reassuring you honey... But that messes things up because I make myself believe he is not serious. I make myself believe he would change overnight. I make myself believe things won't work out. It messed his efforts. 

Life means something to me when he's around. Everything make sense. but, that second when he's gone, when we're apart, these voices started to convince me that this is not right, that is not right, this is not the right time, it's still too soon, it'll never work out, it'll never be the same, and bla bla bla....

And when I start telling, or maybe I'd say sharing with him, he started to change. At least, I know he does... or maybe he didn't but still he made me feel so... So, in a way, he adds up to all this confusion and accidentally convince me, yeah this is not right. :/ 

But, deep inside my heart I think I know the answer. It's the factors around which won't make it happen. and that includes you. :( 

Discover Asia Cafe, Kota Damansara ;p

Chicken Chop - Rm11 (approx.)

Rib eye Steak - RM18

I KNOW RIGHT! THEY ARE VERY YUMMY!!! (not the boys, but the food ;p)

Ini hasil lepak di Asia Cafe, KD.

Ada satu gerai di hujung "From Taiping With Love" 

Serves western and local cuisines. Sedap. And pricing standard.

Shisha juga available disini :)

It is still January

"Claire: It's suspended there to remind us before we pop the champagne and celebrate the New Year, to stop and reflect on the year that has gone by. To remember both our triumphs and our missteps - our promises made, and broken. The times we opened ourselves up to great adventures - or closed ourselves down, for fear of getting hurt. Because that's what New Year's is all about: getting another chance. A chance to forgive, to do better, to do more, to give more, to love more. And stop worrying about 'what if' and start embracing what would be. So when that ball drops at midnight - and it will drop - let's remember to be nice to each other, kind to each other. And not just tonight but all year long."

Adapted from: New Year's Eve movie.

It is still January. Let's still ponder this as we go into February people, the month of love as many call it that way. I cried watching this movie as there's so much I can relate to my own new year's disaster. But it's all about forgiveness, giving chances, and many more. I have to admit I am quite paranoid of opening up to other people as I am afraid I'll get hurt again. I shut the door to my heart, to other people but not fully to him. I know it's not fair but things get better. I believe it will. 

p/s: pictures are not mine ;)

I'm famous for falling in public many times

"ONE STEP AT A TIME HANII"

ONE STEP, DON'T RUSH OR YOU'LL MOST LIKELY FALL. YOU KNOW HOW CLUMSY YOU ARE -.-"
Fell once in front of Gloria Jeans, Mid Valley. - Most embarrassing moment.

Twitter wise

"No need for revenge. Those who hurt you will eventually screw themselves up. And if you're lucky, God will let you watch."

No specific reason for this post. Not posted to any specific person. but I felt like sharing to the world what these gorgeous girls tweeted. 

A pretty good reason for me to convince myself there's no need for revenge. or avenge. 

And a sweet reminder to all those people out there who loves screwing up over people's life. 

And most importantly, reminding people who loves lies. If Allah wills that you can't keep all lies together, that you get screwed over your own lies, if we're lucky, we'll be able to watch your downfall. 

Tutti Frutti okay!

Credit goes to someone else.

Credit of editing goes to me, LOL :P

TUTTI FRUTTI ok, not Frutti Tutti :D

At least someone knows.

Whoever bought me this is sure the sweetest person on earth! Do you know how long I have been craving for dark chocolates? This, people, is what I called perfection of the day ;)

Surprise birthday party for my roomie ;)

It was us, part of the housemates who planned this for our little baby Mira who's turning two zero this year.

It was simple but I thought it was a blast, the party was awesome in a way it gathers us all...

I wish it was the best present she could ever have for turning into an adult (well there's no more 'teen' to be pronounced in her age ;p)

We really wanted it to be a moment, a special day, a day to remember for the rest of her life. Even when we're no more together, or when we got lost in contact. I want her to remember :)

I can't tell what we did, but these pictures shall tell. 

The setting before Mira's arrival *everyone was in excited mood

And there he is, our present from us :P we fetched this present from Unisel Batang Berjuntai all the way to Shah Alam so that she could celebrate with one she loves :) We kept him in the box and asked Mira to open her present and be very careful so that she won't have heart attack! She screamed anyway haih hahahah...

Pizza was our menu. Did i mention how much I love 'together-ness'? I do.

awhhhh ~ that romantic moment! xde sape bleyh kacau! haha

She's lucky and i hope she knows that ;)

Precious people <3 

The people who made the party into a success >.<

These ladies are AWESOME. 

she told him she wanted cupcakes and he got her cupcakes =)

AND HERE COMES THE AFTER PARTY! THE REAL CELEBRATION. THE TRADITION! :D

We closed Mira's eyes, put her in the center of our circle and bash her with the flours in each's hand. xde kesian-kesian. hahaha

covered in flours. demmm

Ain't she cute? =D ikr

Haruslah COUPLE kene teruk, the victim of the night ^^

She got a rose, I'm jealous much? hahaha

AND THAT'S JUST ME INTERRUPTING, TRYING TO BE CUTE ;P (do not puke! haha)

To dear Nor Amirah, we really hope you enjoyed our surprised, no, we hope you love it... 

Maybe it's too late for me to say this here today, but Happy Birthday dear, May Allah bless you with loads of loves around you and I pray you get to keep the one you love forever happily ever after, InsyaAllah.

"Be good, be nice, be wise as you grow older"

I love you :P

Healing from a break up

I swear to God I did not write this to the Sunday Times. But this writing, has almost the same story as mine. and the same duration -__-" Read them :')

Question:

HOW do I stop from loving someone who makes himself unavailable and refuses to reciprocate my caring? We dated for three years and suddenly he said we were through, without an explanation. How do I stop hoping for something more from this person? I even have trouble using the "ex" word. Please help."

Tessie answered;

Can you expect a beggar to give you a car? and would he be too concerned with his hygiene?

Would you ask a chauffeur for a diamond ring?

When you aren't blinded by your emotions, you would naturally match your hopes and expectations realistically, knowing the people around you. You'd be more capable of reading the signs.

The difficulty here is that you can't let go of your hope that he could still be available. 

Ah... you think perhaps if he would understood you better or if you showed him more clearly how much you loved him, he would come around. Then there's the bit where there's no explanation. The man didn't even allow you to take part in your break-up!

The path to healing is to understand the emotions and beliefs you have about yourself that make you hold on to this unrealistic (and painful) expectation.

Such beliefs include "All my relationship should last forever" and "If someone leaves me, that means there's something wrong with me".

Once you have challenged, reoriented or healed your mistaken belief, you can let go of the hurtful hoping about this guy, but still get to keep the love.  

Adapted from  NEW SUNDAY TIMES, JANUARY 15 2012.

It hurts to let go but life goes on (:

my beloved Silly, this is a post for you.

I love it when we say the same thing at once and you'd beat me by saying "jings!" first, and if I catch up with you we'll lose our breathe trying to win over the 'jing' thing. It has always been fun for me :)

We often wait for the date of 14th to come, but when it comes we often forget about it. But today, the day I'm writing this post, I got to wish you happy anniversary. We haven't wish it for quite a while, have we? I'm late one day but at least I didn't say that 14th is the day after tomorrow... Perhaps you're missing me too much that you got lost of the dates? ;p

You know when you get something you always wanted and once you've owned it, you just can't help to keep wanting more? I guess that's the problem with me. And with you? I just can't say for sure. Don't even know if you know this stupid feeling. I got you as a boyfriend, and then I wanted you to be perfect. How stupid can I be, nobody's perfect. 

But I forgot because that was all I see in you that I want it in reality too. I forgot how nice it was when you were a friend, a bestfriend, and a boyfriend to me... I forgot the feeling of how nice it used to be to laugh without having the perfect reasons, to be on the phone without having topics to be talk about, to spend hours talking and end up not knowing what we talked about, to chase each other in the shopping mall, to eat donuts and get creams on your nose... 

I guess I wanted a perfect, serious relationship so much that we forget how to have fun. I spent too much times wanting everything to be in order, wanting you to know what's right or not to say, to act the way I want you to act. Typical girlfriend am I? I shouldn't care so much, I should believe in you that you can take care of yourself without having me to bug into each of your decision. I was so selfish I guess... Do you have any idea of how much I want to go back to the old days, bring back the Hanii you first fell in love with... but you gotta help me here.

I know things have changed. But if it can change then we can surely change it back right? So, help me... We talked about this many times before, but this time I won't say it loud, act natural and see where our hearts will take us too...

I don't want us to be like any other typical couples. I know things will turn out different for us. I know they'd say it is something people say when they're in love, and yes, I am in love with you, and I believed, things are already different for us. We're so unique in a way yet still look like an ordinary couples. Our friends can't stand us, that shows already our sparks are, no, not sparks, but fireworks. It is amazing. We're gorgeous and it is too much for them to handle :P

But we're just too late for any of that. Goodbye....