Last Day of 2011

Adik kata, "Kan best if everytime muntah keluar gold..."

Mom: "Lagi best if every tears dropped turn into gold..."

Adik: "A'ah, Hani kan suka nangis, nanti saya kutip semua air mata dia..."

-Gosh adik, kau cop aku suka nangis? -___-" Dah lah tak habis2 usik aku dah tua.-

"Shitty adik said, "Ma, hani dah takde 'teen-teen' kan tomorrow? Dia dah 'luh-luh' (puluh-puluh) kan?" #LastDayOf2011

He makes me laugh though he is very annoying. Thanks adik (: 

Dear SS

Haih, so much of an ATTENTION SEEKER -__-"

Consoling people ain't easy

‎"Know when to offer tea or sympathy OR a tool kit and a stout rope. "

My little puss in boot xp

Yeap, my little puss but he's big trust me ;p

I miss how he'd crawl onto my bed every morning when everyone is trying to wake me up, he will continue sleeping with me... Cute ain't him? When you first look at him, he looks tough like a bodyguard, but he's very spoiled. He likes people to pamper him... He wants people to accompany him while he eats. Mengada! But it's fine, because when I'm sad, I don't need to call for Goldie, he'll come and sit next to me. He won't go anywhere till I move... He's a gentleman. He's loyal. He's sweet and loving. He's a friend. He could be my next boyfriend ;p

He wasn't expensive when we got him. He came from nowhere, and my mom fed him. In return, he acted very nice and polite, most importantly, he did not poop anywhere near the house or neighbours' houses. So, we kept him. When we go for holiday, we thought he would have run away but he stayed. Long enough till even my dad loves him, I know he does. Usually he won't allows any cats in the house, but this Goldie, is the only exception. LOL. He's my only exception.

Have you tried to change once?

"Consider how hard it is to change yourself and you'll understand what little chance you have in trying to change others."

After 20+ years of marriage

Observing how parents act sometimes makes me wonders, are they really happy?

After 20+ years of marriage, do you still love you wife/husband?

After 20+ years of marriage, do you still talk to your love?

After 20+ years of marriage, do you still want to hug her/him and keep them safe?

After 20+ years of marriage, and your children are big enough to care for themselves, do you still want to be with your wife/husband?

or...

After 20+ years of marriage... you're still together just to keep the family tree? Just for the sake of the children? Or just for the sake of, I don't know... maybe it seems like a chore to you?

When I love someone, I want him to talk to me on anything. If I have just arrived from somewhere and my loved fetched me, the first thing I'd do or want him to do is to shake his hand and hug. Even if it is infront of my child. I mean, you have to show them love... It makes them happy to see their parents happy. And it somehow teach them the value of... I don't really know how to explain, but I am so happy and satisfied and contented and amazed to see my parents loving each other. Not in an extreme way, not infront of me and my siblings please, but in a soft and gentle way. But, on the other hand, coldness makes them sad and wonder if something might happen to the family. Makes the wonder what are the causes. It hurts them.

To kiss your wife/husband infront of your child is not the same as teaching them to do the same when they are not married yet, but encourages them to be married and live a happy life like that. It shows them the value of love and to kiss someone who is only worth the kiss. It's just... hard for me to explain... But, something that parents should understand, and children feel despite their age...

Lembah Temir

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TEMIR VALLEY MALAYSIA, the most perfect getaway I ever had! :)

Lembah Temir, Raub

View from the chalet

Perfect isn't it to relax while listening to the sound of the running water..

View from the veranda. how peaceful :)

Ikan patin masak tempoyak!!! Yummy kan? :D

Ulcer and birthday does not get along well

Talking of ulcers, I hate ulcer so much! but my brother has very bad ulcers in his mouth that burst and spread all over his lips. So, his lips is swollen and he feels so miserable as he can't do his 2 favorite things which is:

1. EAT

2. TALK

And it was actually quite a relieved for the rest of the family to have a break from annoyance, but we kinda miss his annoying talking and actually feel pity for him. Oh my god, he cried because he can't eat and talk for god sake! And now that he can talk a bit, he told my mom he wants to eat this and that and that and this. More sad? It is his birthday and his bestfriend's mom made a birthday cake for him but he cant eat it! What a shame :( but brother, we love you anyway & HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR :) I got you a puzzle since you cant eat a cake :P I hope you like it.

Dedicated to you Alanna, childhood friend.

Alanna. she's my childhood friend, our childhood friend  actually... My siblings and I and Alanna often played together in the evening, we cycled, we climbed the cherry tree, we came home late, went to the park and all. I mean, I am older than her, but you see when were a child, you do not discriminate... not by race, age or pretty faces. Even if you don't like someone, when it comes to play time, you play along...

Her mother was a great women, very pretty too and nice of course :)
I remember celebrating birthdays and all. What a fun time Alanna :) I miss all those funs.

Say hello to memories :)

"Leave me then one day you'll realize there's no one would make coffee for you anymore like I always did. Its the simple things you dont see."

It's just words that came running past through my head. It didn't mean much anyway did it? I don't know...
The main point is that, sometimes you don't realize the simple things that kept you happy or contented. You tend to take it for granted, like I always do I guess... I couldn't really figure out what but I guess part of anything that goes wrong is my fault too. You can't just solely blame people, right... But when people take advantage of what you've done, perhaps when you admitted your fault and they'd be like so proud of themselves like they've done nothing wrong, boleh ucap selamat jalan.  
I always treasure when my Mom makes coffee for me every morning, it's something I love. Or serve coffee when I am so busy doing assignments. It's the simple things you know...
Appreciate what you have dearest. When it's gone, it'll be just a little too late :) you can just say hello to memories then. Take care readers, ♥♥♥

You plan to see a rainbow but what you get to see was nothing

Topic of the day: Blaming people.

Bad day today as for me. I worked my ass off for Marketing presentation, however, not my luck that everything are clashing with one another in the same week. So, gotta admit I suck at time management. I tried my best but I was distracted by emotions turbulence which paused me for one whole day. So, in one time I'm trying to complete my report on Marketing project and doing the best for my Marketing Channel presentation. I made personal notes for everyone, photocopied it and intended to distribute it in class but only God knows why it happened, I was late for class, the printing shop made me wait for so long, I did last minute changes to my report, and all. Basic mistake: LAST MINUTE WORK! So, I was wrong, I was about on my way to class and got a text saying the lecturer was pissed by something, someone or somewhat I don't know that she left the class. She was informed that I'm gonna be late. I know it's part of my mistake but I don't really think she left class because of me... She can definitely refrain me from presenting if she was really mad just because I'm late, but she abandoned the whole class. So, of course I'm pissed if others blame me alone without reflecting their own mistakes.

I went anyway to see if I can see her to apologize, at least if she would accept my report even if she's not gonna let me present. I lost my mark for sure, but I believed it happens for a reason. Perhaps if this never happen than I'd continue with my bad habits of procrastinating work, mixing emotions with works, it was never right... It's about time to change Hanii... to realize that you're gonna have to learn to priotize what's more important. Well, back to the story, I went but she wasn't there. I called but she wouldn't pick up. I texted and she replied that I could leave the report at the administration. So, the least I could do was to say thank you for accepting my report and sorry for being so late. I don't know how am I suppose to explain to her.. I feel bad really.

But I feel even worse when classmates who were in the class (which all were late too), started to call to see if I'm seeing the lecturer cuz they want to see her too. I told them no, because the lecturer won't even pick up the phone. And when I bumped into them, they started to ask again the same question. I was trying to be patient while dealing with own frustration because of losing marks and all... But I was really pissed when a voice shout out,"salah presenter sebab datang lambat." While I know the flow of the situation, they can't be blaming me. The reason they were mad is because our lecturer doesn't want to accept their report and they blame me for that? What do I have to do with their reports? It's a definite no no that I have nothing to do with madam not accepting their reports. Memang mintak maki la wei. I wasn't trying to curse or anything but I wish they would stop blaming people and reflect if they, themselves had done anything wrong to our beloved lecturer. I told them I was sorry I was late, that I did not present my chapter and all. That was my fault but I certainly is not the reason of their reports are not accepted.

Look, I'm sorry I was pissed but I hope you'd think before you say something. It might hurt other people's feeling. And to those who thinks they've done a perfect work, think again. You might arrived early to class, submitted the report, and presented, but did you present well? Up to madam's expectation? Did your classmates hear you out? Do they understand? Or it was all piece of shit? Jangan berlagak sangat please.

Before you even blame anyone, think, did I do something wrong that causes that person to act that way? Kalau kau tak salah tak apalah, but what if you WERE wrong? hmm.

p/s: If only my lect's reading this which I know she won't? err... But would love to say millions of sorry. If only she knows how eager I am to present for Marketing Channel chapters -__-" but it's okay, it was my fault. I learned my lesson and I hope you can forgive me for this. I'll try my best again, for the next presentation, to not disappointing you, but in case you change your mind, I'd love to present to my classmates about Marketing Channel. I'm sorry Madam, tak pernah terlintas dihati to take advantage of your kindness. Sorry.

"Everybody wants happiness nobody wants pain. But you can’t have a rainbow without a little rain."

PLEASE HELP. YOU CAN MAKE A DIFF IN ONE'S LIFE

At times you're going through a hardship, heartbreak, failure... Just remember there's someone out there who's going through the worse suffering than what you're in. Especially heartbreaks with a partner. I can't imagine going through a heartbreak without crying, without eating but people, its just worse to even imagine a mom's heartbreak to see their child's pain.

True, I thought I almost went crazy with so much things going around. I couldn't cope well. Then, I sit next to my mom after coming back from somewhere, she told me about my brother's friend, who is just 11 years old. His friend, Khairil Irman Rosli, was hit by a lorry while cycling. His condition were too critical that he was admitted into ICU. Even till today, he's still in the ICU. From the info, it says he is already conscious but was very weak that he got his lung infected now. Oh my god, he is such a small child to be suffering so much. Both of his hand are bounded to the bed, as he's struggling to take out all the wires attached to him. I feel so sad even listening to the story. The first round of donation has been made, and now the second round is going on... He is not from a rich neither moderate class family I think, and does not have any insurance. His parents are not working in the corporate level that the company does not cover any damage done. PLEASE HELP. YOU CAN MAKE A DIFF IN ONE'S LIFE. He is so young to suffer such pain.

Please drop a comment if you'd like to help. I'd find a way for you to contact the parents of the kid right away. Please, this is not a spam I swear. Only God knows. I'll try to get pictures of the kid and you can even find him on facebook, just type in 'KHAIRIL IRMAN ROSLI'. He's a very small kid but was very active in the school and is a good friend. Let us all help him to get a chance to live.

Update: I was told that he was on his way back from school with his friend cycling, his friend was infront. They were on a one way road but the lorry came from the wrong way and crash him. His friend was safe, but he missed by second. Fortunately, when he realized, the boy let go of the bicycle but still got hit. I still havent got the account number from the parents, working on it. Let's us all pray for his recovery and may Allah bless this family of a young eldest boy. 




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They have issues

If you dress nicely, he says you're a snob. If you dress sexy, he says you're a slũt. 
If you argue with him, he says you're stubborn. If you're quiet, he says you're stupid. 
If you call him, he says you're needy and clingy. If he calls you, he says you should be grateful. 
If you don't love him, he'll try to win you. If you love him, he'll leave you.
 If you don't screw him, he'll say you don't love him. If you do, he'll say you're easy. 
If you tell him your problems, he'll say you're irritating. If you don't, he'll say you don't trust him.
 If you lecture him, he'll say you're bitchy. If he lectures you, it's because he 'cares'. 
If you break a promise, you can't be trusted. If he breaks a promise, he had to. 
If you cheat, he expects it to be over. If he cheats, he expects to be given another chance. 
 Either way... you run back ... EVERYTIME!


like, if you have something going on and forgot to call him, he'd be upset. But if he has something going on and does not call, its because he really can't and expects you to understand ALL WAY LONG. 


p/s: this is copied. & this, part of it is true. don't you think so? and this, too, can be vice versa.

The older, the mature?

"I may be a 'kid',but I'm more mature than you. Note that."

Not being vain either arrogant. I am just saying, it's true it doesn't mean I am younger than you than I am more naive or stupid or immature. I can be childish but my point of view can be more matured than you. Entah kenapa, maturity is such a big issue with "old" girls who are already in university. If I was a school girl, they would call me bdk hingusan, but when I finished school and got into a university they looked down at me as they're already in degree level. Is this what you called matured? I don't know, not all young people are matured enough but some are just gifted. So, you can't just look down at people, judge them all you want and spread stories that ain't true about them. That is what I call 'inferiority complex'. You just can't accept it is it? Oh God. I wish it was never an issue cuz it got me exhausted. so exhausted.

But, I know people at young age who has issue with seniors or older people might be nodding your head, smiling, and saying,"yea it's true. doesn't mean i'm younger i'm not matured." the fact is dear, only some people who is really matured. If you, at such a young age, desperate to tell and better yet to show off to people that you are matured, then I guess you're just not there yet. Maybe even if you are matured, you still have to respect them who's older than you. Respect is important. Unless you show respect and they give you shit, there goes your right to do what you want to do. Depends if you're matured enough, I don't think you'll curse. You perhaps will just let it go and let it flow, see where it gets to...

Maturity is very subtle. You can't measure them. and definitely it is not measured upon age.

The older, the wiser. IF YOU REALLY LEARN WHAT LIFE HAS TAUGHT YOU.

oh p/s: love that one person only without having another one waiting on the other line :)

Pooh and Piglet

Piglet sidled up to Pooh from behind. "Pooh," he whispered. 

"Yes, Piglet?" 

"Nothing," said Piglet, taking Pooh's paw, "I just wanted to be sure of you."

Love is sweet. As much sweet will get you diabetes. well, it's love.

I remember doing this all the time. Calling my boy just to make sure whether he's okay or not. It appears that I have less bonding with this guy, perhaps we'll have to get married first :LOL:
So, I can't trust my instinct much on this.
The other day, he went to class. And I ride to my class but on the way I saw an accident, our university is quite close to one another but I did not know whether he has arrived or not. So, I immediately called to ask if he was okay. That's all that matter, him being safe. But sadly, the one who's involved in the accident is one if his friend. He was riding a motorcycle and fell by himself. I am not so sure how bad it was but he's gone. Al-fatihah.

But be sure, how you guys fight or said you hate each other, but if you care enough to let go of your ego, it doesn't cost a fortune. Unless you want it to be too late...

He's been using me

"People were created to be LOVED. Things were created to be USED. The reasons why world is in CHAOS, is because things are being loved, and people are being used."

True. It is so true. The worse a person could ever do is to take advantage on other people. Materialistic much? But, it doesn't mean you need to have something valuable for people to advantage on you. All it takes is to have something that they want. Comfort for example. I don't know how to explain in further details. But isn't it mean to take advantage of the hospitality provided by someone who actually really love you? She loves you but you're just basically using her for your own importance. I think it's cruel.

There is a saying,"when you give, don't expect for anything in return." Sure true as hell, but as in human nature when you give and give and give and give, and keep giving but you're not getting as much. You somehow even feel neglected, feel being left, and finally you'll feel like,"GOSH HE'S BEEN USING ME!"
We don't expect wen we give, but you should really play your part. I'm sure you're a human being too right? So, treat people the way you want to be treated.  

*sorry if the title is a little too controversial. :p

Sayang tapi Malang, Dia Curang

Don't worry girl, he tells every other girl that she's special. You're just another girl.

Hey people, ever heard of a LOVE TRIANGLE?
According to Wikipedia,

"The term "love triangle" almost always implies that the arrangement is unsuitable to one or more of the people involved. One person usually ends up feeling betrayed at some point. A similar arrangement that is agreed upon by all parties is sometimes called a triad, a type of polyamory, although polyamory usually implies sexual relations. Within the context of monogamy, love triangles are inherently unstable. Unrequited love and jealousy are common themes in love triangles. Though rare, love triangles have been known to lead to murder or suicide committed by the actual or perceived rejected lover.These can be avoided if one just sticks to the one person they love."


or for those yang up sikit taking French classes, it's called, 

French: triangle amoureux

Or untuk yang otak bengap, SAYANG TAPI MALANG, DIA CURANG...

Well I don't know what it's called in Thai but guess what? I know 3 perfect people who're absolutely perfect in playing this love game. Nak tahu siapa? (Oh Geesh I'm so scared! I don't have the guts to tell who!) But for real I'm not someone yang mcm you guys which suka mengaibkan 'kawan-kawan' sendiri. 


These 3 people are:

• Unhappy people.
• Live in a life full of lies.
• perfect liars.
• Envy people in great jealousy.

They are unhappy because they're never true to themselves and never true towards people around them. Kalau berkawan, nak berkawan dengan orang yang berduit. If ada kawan-kawan yang succeed upon their own hardwork or happy dengan their life, akan didengki and mulalah mulut spreading 'the words of love.'


Live in a life full of lies. Dalam cinta tiga segi, tak semestinya one side sahaja yang curang. In this case, si jantan curang, si betina pun sama. Yang jantan, of course, friends will cover him up. When called, phone silent la, busy and whatsoever. Padahal tengah padok gadis dari seberang. Yang betina pulak, non-stop texting dengan jejaka idaman yang tak kesampaian. Tapi mestilah sorok-sorok dengan si jantan sebab SAYANG kan...


Datang pulak a third person inter-frame. but the best part of all is that, susah sangat nak kantoi sebab tiga-tiga pandaiiiii MENIPU! Perfect Liars babe. They could really sweet talks you in front of your face but behind your back masing-masing mulut busuk macam 'bangkai'. Kepada si jantan, kalau ada rezeki kahwin jela dengan dua-dua sekali ye sebab korang bertiga sangat sesuai bersam, tidur satu katil pun tadahal lah. U guys share a great common sense *wink* 


*No wonder life would never choose you or let you choose for yourself, terpaksa rembat apa yang ada sebab if given chances pun, you guy are kind of people yang cuma akan WASTE it. Before you tell someone to GET A LIFE, do something with your life first kay. Worth it ke hidup?*


And biasalah, orang yang tak happy dengan hidup sendiri akan always dengki with others yang berjaya dengan usaha sendiri sebab terfikir, "kenapa aku tak boleh jadi macam dia?" wey, guna otak la baru boley hidup! Ataupun,"Oh happynye dia dengan girlfriend dia... sangat intimate and sweet..." Macam mane kau nak jadi macam tu bila hubungan itself tipu sana tipu sini? duh... - -"
And bila dah dengki, macam-macam lah. Kawan sendiri pun boleh diugut nak reveal secrets and all, that's why rakan-rakan, nowadays friends bukan semua yang can be fully trusted. Ape yang pernah ditolong pun berbakul-bakul semua ungkit balik, tak sedar agaknya yang dia tu lebih banyak SECRETS2 sensasi yang boleh dihebah :)
Bukannya kawan-kawan tak pernah berbudi kepadanya. Inil barulah dikatakan Pathetic, people. So, next time jangan salah guna ye term ini. 


Peliknya, Si curangs-curangs ni perangai lebih kurang sama, macam mane nak kate ye... "Lagi tua, lagi matang." Itulah pemikiran mereka, makanya, perangai pun 'MATANG' sangat. 


How sad...


Sayang tapi malang, dua-dua curang. Kalau tak happy let go... Yakin pada Allah yang Maha Adil tu that He'd destined your life with someone i'Allah. Inilah jadinya bila solat 5 waktu tinggal, Solat jumaat pun x pergi! ( khas untuk jejaka2 sekalian) 


p/s: kalau terasa sendiri2 handle dengan cara matang dan rasional ye. Tak perlu heboh satu facebook. Saya sangat malas nak buat perang status. Pandai-pandai fikirlah, dah besar kan? 


"Words are heard by others, not by you. But... Reflect, then you'll realize that sometimes your words are meant for yourself." If you're so good at talking, how about take a mirror put it ifront of your face and start talking, don't you think it would make a perfect reflection on you? great, great & great :)

Silly lily

Silly isn't it?

You studied for the whole semester & you throw it off just in 2 to 3 hours examination.

You collected a penny a day and finally spend all of it in just a day too?

You take lifetime to keep as much romance novels and burned it when you don't need them anymore.

You are happy with someone you love for more than 2 years (could be 20 years) and you end everything in a second due to a silly argument.

For every single thing you've been doing, for every single person you've been with, will you just give it up when you're at the very bottom of your life? Just give up? Just like that?

Don't judge me. I'm not a book :p

          Did a quiz an here's the result ;p

         You Judge People Based on Intuition

You can't explain why you trust and like some people. It's all about going with your gut.

Your instincts tend to be right, and your first impression of someone usually sticks.

Keep going with your intuition, as it has served you well ... especially when you have a bad feeling about someone.

Be open to changing your mind about people. Your intuition may change if you learn more information about someone. 

"Yesss, but as a human I make mistakes and misjudged and mistrust... There are people which we thought is nice but is actually a piece of shit :) That's what I learned about someone."

Fantasi, Ilusi, & Realiti

saya pejam satu mata, saya nampak awak...
so, saya pejam dua2 mata, tapi saya mula dengar suara awak...
saya tak faham, "what's happening....?" "kat mana saya...?"
saya rindu sangat dekat awak. tapi saya takut bila awak dekat2 dengan saya.
saya takut awak akan lukakan saya lagi...
saya bahagia sangat dengar suara awak, tapi pada masa yang sama, saya sakit.
saya keliru.


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saya rasa saya tidur tadi... tapi situasi ni nampak real sangat.
saya tak bermimpi... awak memang ada... saya dapat rasa...
tapi saya tak tahu kenapa, tiba2 saya terjaga...
kecewanya saya, saya tak sempat nak cakap dengan awak...
tapi dalam realiti yang ntah kemana, saya still dapat rasa awak genggam tangan saya...
entah kenapa, saya tak dapat rasa air mata saya mengalir...
awak, awak kat mana?


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saya letih, saya penat... saya tak mahu bangun... saya nak tidur...
saya nak jumpa awak lagi....
saya tahu setiap kali saya pejam mata, saya boleh jumpa awak...
saya rindu awak...
awak rindu saya tak?
perasaan saya kuat sangat.... awak dapat rasa tak?
awak jawablah soalan saya....
tolonglah...


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saya tengah buat ulangkaji, saya tak sedar bila saya terpejam...
tapi saya tak kisah. sebab saya nampak awak datang...
awak duduk tepi saya, kita sama2 senyum...
tapi bila saya nak salam awak... saya nak cium tangan awak...
awak hilang...
"awak! jangan pegi... jangan tinggalkan saya..."
saya terjaga, saya masih mencari.
bila realiti menggamit saya, baru saya perasan, "oh cuma mimpi..."
saya menangis lagi...
"saya nak awak betul2 tepi saya..."


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"awak, percayalah cakap saya kalau saya cakap saya bosan. sebab saya tak maksudkannya pun." tunggang terbalik kan ayat saya? macam tu lah hidup saya sekarang...
saya tak tahu macam mana nak lupakan awak...
tapi saya tahu, saya mesti lupakan awak...
saya selalu bayangkan perkara2 indah mcm perasaan yang tak pernah berubah.
tapi itu semua ilusi sahaja...
sedihnye saya...
pedih rasanya...


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saya nak benci awak.
saya nak marah awak.
saya nak lempang awak...
tapi saya tak sanggup.
apa sangatlah salah awak...
saya terfikir, kalau satu hari nanti apa2 jadi, dan saya tak sempat maafkan awak,
mesti saya menyesal... jadi, baik saya maafkan awak dan lupakan awak.
sekurang-kurangnya saya takkan menyesal di atas kebahagiaan awak...
saya bahagia tgk awak bahagia..
walaupun terluka. tapi saya masih boleh senyum..
saya dah cukup gembira.


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awak, kalau saya tak sempat bagitau awak,
saya cuma nak awak tahu betapa saya cinta kat awak.
perasaan saya tak pernah berubah.
saya pernah marah sangat dekat awak...
tapi perasaan tu tak lama.
saya takut kita tak dapat bertemu, apatah lagi bersama...
once and for all, saya sayang sangat kat awak.
"pls jangan lupa saya ye?"


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awak fantasi hidup saya, ilusi saya dan pernah menjadi realiti untuk saya.